Never Was by Dark Horse District

Never Was by Dark Horse District is obviously a song about grief.

From there, I’d have to be able to read the songwriter’s mind to say for a fact that I knew what this song means. But I’m no mind reader.
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So, essentially, this is an eisegesis – the interpretation of a word or passage by reading into it one’s own ideas…. (and, no, don’t use that word or people will think you’re a jackass… I only did because I learned it in college once and I finally found a place for it….nanner!).

Soooooo. My interp. “Never Was” is obviously a song about grief.

This is about a mother and son and the regrets they both had with her death – her regret of leaving this life without him having had a chance to know her, and him being put on this earth without ever knowing her.

The son yearns for the unconditional love only a mother can give: “And will I ever hear the symphonies of love?”

The clue that at least part of this is a song from the mother is that this person was never the child’s father, daughter or son.

And her sadness of not getting to know him is palpable: “I never knew your ire. I never heard your joy. I never felt your tears.”

His response is full of questions about what life was like for her.” And will I feel hands tired?” the ways her hands became tired in life.

And will he always be searching for her: “And will I crawl for years?And will I know you’re near? Oh, will I speak your name?”

The mother tells him that her biggest regret wasn’t dying. It was the thought that he might not know she loved him: “The hours I’ve watched your face…has every moment gone to waste?” Her “darkened time” was “faced.”

He, though, has a full life ahead of him.

His response is: “I never had your thoughts. I never had your eyes.
I never had your road.” In fact, he never even had her long enough to “tire” her arms.”

And he wants to know her. He aches and longs to feel his mother. Life began with her, and, metaphorically, as this time in his life is full of struggles, feeling her love and comfort is what he needs: “Put me back into the ground, reaching for the life I found.”

He laments not knowing her. She laments not knowing him.
“I never had your faults
I never had your rights
I never had your roads….”

And there is the hope of reincarnation. For them both. Let her have another chance. And let him have a chance to get out of this sadness. “Another time around spin you back into the ground
reaching for life I’ve found. ”

Or…..it’s about some guy making a sandwich.

The Complete Lyrics to Never Was by Dark Horse District

I never was your father.
I never was your daughter.
I never was your son.

I never knew your ire.
I never heard your joy.
I never felt your tears.

And will I feel hands tired?
And will I crawl for years?
And will I know you’re near?

Oh will I speak your name?
And will I ever hear
the symphonies of love?

Another time around
spin you back into the ground
reaching for life I’ve found.

The darkened time is fate.
The hours I’ve watched your face,
has every moment gone to waste?

I never had your thoughts
I never had your eyes
I never had your road nnnoooo

Ohhhhh I never tired your arms
Put me back into the ground
Reaching for the life I found

The darkened time is faced.
The hours I’ve watched your face,
has every moment gone to waste?

I never had your faults
I never had your rights
I never had your roads…. Nooooo

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As far as I can tell, you can only purchase Never Was on iTunes. There is no video for Never Was by Dark Horse District.

But do go listen to Rose by Dark Horse District.

For more music by Dark Horse District, read about Rose.

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